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Sunday, 30 January 2022

A Requiem From Winter Past: Chapter 5

AGE WARNING:
This work is one of dark nature. If you're below the age of 16, then you're better off reading something else. I don't profess to follow the rules of my country where only foreigners like G.R.R Martin and Miura Kentaro can write dark fiction.


A Requiem From Winter Past
~The Wolf, Lion, And Maiden Fair~
(Written by Cocteau L'Enfant Naturel)

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4

Chapter 5: Monsters, Demons, And Gods

"People kill to survive. We survive so that we can live. I'll never say life isn't ugly, but no one can deny there's something beautiful about the dignity driving us all."
~Kagetsu no Ji'Yon

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His anger is an all-consuming conflagration, Aeravor's snarl cursing that one person he once regarded as a friend: Lars Alies the demon hunter, Lars Alies the thrice-damned traitor. They used to start fights and visit the nearest gi'ya, both always together. They annoyed Tai'Jin till no end, the two always a constant source of Ji'Yon's frustration. Then everything went up in flames, every shard of memory the sharpest knife.

“Fight me like a man,” says the Wildebrand with fists tightly clenched, his strength fled from the athletic frame which has conquered whores and foes for countless years.

“Just to make sure I die like one?”

“You don’t deserve to die like one.”

Lars smiles, an accusation levelling its tip at himself. Not a devious grin or a sellsword's leer, but a haunted man's sorrow. As for the Relentless One, forgive and forget is never part of his language. Mercy is reserved only for the weak, those who can't hold a sword properly. It takes a monster to kill a demon, for saintly souls always perish first. As the saying of his own people goes, mongrel or lion means nothing to the wolves.

The Edge of Answerer stubbornly gripped despite searing pain caused by the enemy's Relic, Aeravor displays his defiance through an audible growl. The fighter makes his stand, raging fire stoked inside a forge of flesh and blood. He can’t cede ground to the pain, he can’t concede defeat. Kagetsu no Ji'Yon is the only woman he will ever love, Lars Alies is the one person who must die because of her. Though he knows what the Phantom of Crows can do, it merely means Lars is not the only person wielding a Relic.

“Kill you! Kill you, kill you, I'll kill you! Lars Alies!”

Bellowed vengeance rampages through the forest, spoken words resounding like a bestial roar. In an awesome show of force, the chains immobilising the ranger shatter before every witness. For the first time since Kain rescued her from the slavers, the taste of fear visits Ciras. The peace and tranquillity ruling as king and queen of this place are usurped by incessant wails, curses and every expression of bitterness echoing. Something is disturbing about this rogue, it's as if either he sees the world as his enemy or the other way around. If there is any part of Ciras' past that she would rather die than be reminded of, it'd be her days as a slave raped before she was prepared to be sold as a mere object. Here it is someone retelling a story of monsters, one created by the gods.

It then happened in a momentary flash, a show of utter madness. Lolyx rushes towards the man of ivory, another man of dusk preparing to strike. The Wildebrand vanished and reappears behind his prey, surely all will end in a single blow. Just like that fateful day under the autumn sky, that first day of the eleventh month. Lars' golden eyes narrow immediately, a crow swooping past. From the opposite direction, a silver chain wraps itself around the assailant's neck. Choked from behind and immobilised again, Aeravor glares at the object of his hate. Unable to utter a word, there is only this far an otherworldly fortitude can go. Senses numbed by the restraint, the sellsword struggles to piece together a shattered focus.

"My thanks, little girl. You don’t have to do this."

If Lars’ statement is intended as gratitude, Lolyx would have nothing of it.

“Little girl? Look, I’m already eighteen. You know what this means?”

“Why, yes I do. It means having a stack.”

“What? You know what you’re saying, you deplorable lowlife?”

“Again, yes I do, my dear grown-up kitten. I know your friend over there is also a looker even with her small stack. I guess she's also eighteen.”

Before a banter abruptly sparked, Aeravor gnashes his teeth. It's so much like a past worth many years of hate, a page in history condemning him forever. If there is truly a life worse than one of despair, it would be this. Lars casts a glance towards the person who used to be his friend, an unattainable dream beckoning.

“You know what it means to be best friends forever? I know that sounds dumb, Aera.”

“You’re dumb and drunk, Lars.”

“Dumb, no. Drunk, maybe. Seriously, how can an idiot shaft a whore since he doesn't know where to put it?”

“Too many children's tales then, whoremonger.”

“I guess so. Erm... Aera?”

“What? You want me to shut up about your adventures in the whorehouse?”

“Thanks, my friend. Ji would kill me and hang me upside down if not for your promise of timely aid. She likes children's tales, but it doesn't mean anything once she starts breathing fire and fury.”

“You owe me one, Lars. And no best friends forever unless you want me to kill you instead.”

Without a show of farewell save a wounded man's smile, Lars Alies departs. His form disintegrates into a murder of crows, ceaseless caws ringing like piercing shrieks. Lolyx, Adarl, and Ciras are left stupefied, Kain revealing only a frown. Aeravor's fury rages like a massive bonfire as he is overwhelmed by searing pain, darkness cloaking his sight and usurping his mind.

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“Wait, am I seeing things?”

“I doubt so, Lolyx,” says Adarl, the most grotesque sight heralding its coming. Assuming the shape of naked men, nothing is visible between their legs. If they are meant to be women instead, each torso never exposed a single breast. Their bodies are flayed, each form weeping blood never dripped on the ground. For the first time in her life, Adarl knows what the inhumane looks like. Nothing is seen on their faces, eyes, ears, noses, and mouths... none are present. This is a mob whose only humanity lies in the solid physique, but there is something in them making her tremble with joy and fear. How can this contradiction happen in the first place? Why the fear? And where is the joy? She doesn't want to know, for something within understands the day she gets the answer is the day she risks losing everything.

Cale...

As thoughts of unreciprocated love enter her mind, every bloodied slit opens its formless face. Each gaping rift reveals an eye, its length spanning from forehead to chin. The willowy brunette's mind is instantly obliterated, countless evils invading her awareness. She witnesses all sorts of wickedness any and every person is capable of, the wall between humanity and monstrosity eradicated. Women are raped while trapped in cages, many of them forced to please two to three drooling men at once. Dismembered parts of newborn children are strewn at random places, soldiers of fortune cutting apart pregnant mothers. Many are busy slaughtering each other, each victor in turn slain by his neighbour. Altars are preaching lies, their listeners ignoring the dead. Kings and rulers feast alike, every commoner rich and poor ignoring a dead slave mutilated.

Curse you... damn you...

Open up your legs for us...

All lives be damned...

For us, not them... we are the gods and they are the monsters...

You... what do you desire, sweet young thing?

The last statement breaks Adarl apart, her eyes seeing Cale naked and ploughing her. Then there are Irlia and Ciras tied to a tree, their naked forms brutally ravished by an army of men. As for Lukas Broun, his head is lifted on a pole while his body remains impaled on a spike. There is neither guilt nor outrage, only pleasure. All the worst evils and most pleasurable sins are released from a box previously locked, the key none other than its owner herself.

A stinging slap pulls her back to her senses, naked body exposed to an unnatural cold. Adarl realises Ciras is holding onto her shoulders, a motherly figure shielding a sinner. Guilt assails the heart, her mind struggling against the truth. As for Lolyx, her trembling frame guides Adarl's gaze to a towering frame of black. Gone is the man whose name is Kain, for a knight stands tall. Had not a bastion of black defended their honour, a foul army would have easily raped them all 

“One swipe of his axe and they died just like that...”

Struggling to understand Lolyx's words at first, Adarl soon knows the reason. A pool of crimson separates them from the horde, another such puddle surrounding her. It is as if something cleaved into these monsters, their blood splattered with nothing else left. She remembers the axe Kain wielded with deceptive grace, a weapon any other person would have gripped with two hands instead of one.

“Where is he, Ciras? I mean...”

Despite knowing the obvious, something in Adarl hopes the answer wouldn't be the case. There's something about Kain reminding her of Cale, the picture of a man turned into a beast.

“You're looking at the angry burnt man if that's what you want to know. And please don't ask me why we're safe so long he stays near us. Just don't you dare run off like just now.”

Answering on Ciras' behalf, no mirth is detected in Lolyx's words. The Tamurian is correct, for there's something in a tower of the darkest storm preventing those monsters from surrounding them.

“If you feel cold, it means you're safe,” assures Ciras, the red-haired girl's words taking Lolyx and Adarl by surprise. “Trust me. I've been through this before.”

Kain takes a step forward, then the second and third.

“Wait, what is this burnt idiot doing? Is he trying to kill us by walking away?”

Lolyx's fear ends up unproven, the icy fortress still standing strong. The objects of horror suddenly descend upon a man armoured by darkness, each one's fingers replaced by massive claws. Attacks come wave after wave, each blow ripping open a massive wound. Nausea churning inside her gut, Adarl vomits as the gruesome scene of slaughtered mothers haunts her again and again. As if to taunt her and as if to jeer her, like a demonic jester out to mock her.

Pain lit its flare inside Kain, the beacon of torment fueling his unquenchable fire. His focus never dimming and ever-burning, every swing from the Cleaver of Mountains reduces their number by more than one. From the ground he is at, his weapon annihilates everything even if any stands at a distance away. From where he is standing, assaults against his head and chest are repelled,. Every gash closes up by itself, each injury healed feeding the momentum only a monster is capable of. Where his armour used to be rent, the gaps vanished.

The diabolical entities are swiftly reduced to a score, yet the berserker is now having a harder time. Where it took but a single blow to wipe out three or four, the very same deadly stroke is unable to repeat this feat. Adarl grips tightly onto Lolyx, Ciras wrinkling her frock with both hands. Their black knight hasn't shown signs of fatigue, yet who knows when the possible would arrive? One more goes down to the dust, then the second one follows.

A loud sound of shattered steel suddenly invades the spectators' ears, a roar eerily resembling a wolf's howl shakes the ground. Trees sway violently as if seized by a tempest, the air turning from summer to winter. Greeting Lolyx's widened gaze is a realm of ice and a frozen lake, the tundra bereft of life. But there's something in it, a life of its own. It curses the world for all things given and taken away, the roaring blizzard challenging some manner of a god at work. It's like a brazen rebel cursed with nothing to gain and blessed with nothing to lose, a blasphemer mocking death itself despite his mortality.

“Winter?”

Hearing Ciras echoing her thoughts is nothing less than shocking, a bewildered look paying no heed to Lolyx. It's one thing to behold an illusion, quite another to realise she's not the only one. For all she knows, Ciras might have seen the same thing. Something isn't right as the Tamurian murmurs vulgarities at an annoying blonde no longer around, an empty attempt to vent her frustration. A biting wind brushes past the trio, the cold assailing them as the obnoxious mercenary ignores them. No strides are made, only a walk towards the battle ahead. Ciras tries to warn Kain, her voice ends up trapped in a cage that is her throat. Eyes of azure blue replaced by jewels of crimson red, she's a witness to a mocker's look supplanted by a monster's visage. There's no arrogance in these steps, his shoulders hunched like a beast stalking its prey. He vanishes instantly, three single-eyed monsters hacked down without mercy or reprieve. His quarry isn't Kain, the ones battling him are. Seizing the advantage offered by the unlikeliest ally, Kain makes his advance.

The sight is nothing short of a song sung by bards, two men who were foes now turn themselves into comrades. When they fought each other, sanity was present. Side by side, only madness defines this alliance. The resultant formation is simple, brutal is its efficiency. Kain's power and fortitude serve as shield and cloak, his partner's precision and flashing movements are the spear and dagger. A rain of fire showers sudden judgement upon the remaining ten or so, a storm of icy wind slows them down. With a devastating stroke, Kain slays them all, his attack ripping the survivors apart like a violent gale stripping trees of their leaves.

To every watcher's horror, the sickly mass of liquid around the supposed victors moves towards Adarl. Her mind promptly empties itself, there's only this much she can endure. Without thinking, Lolyx manages to drag her friend away before what is feared materialises. Getting themselves before Kain's feet, the three maidens pay no more than a glance to a being of insanity stepping forth. To face a monstrous giant covered with eyes, its grotesque arms of mangled flesh wielding a spear of bone.

A blinding blanket of white abruptly invades Ciras' mind, her heartbeat slowing down. Gasping for breath, the scene in front of her is one the Teutonian has never seen before. 

Why does it feel so real and sorrowful?

As if in reply to her thoughts, the boy turned around.

“I'm going to become a hero you can be proud of, Ciras. Just wait for it.”

He is standing in the middle of a meadow, sandy blond hair covering his nape and sapphire eyes revealing an innocence befitting of his age. Ordinary features hiding something extraordinary, he reveals a grin untainted by a cruel world. It is a portrait of solitude, for nearby stands a cottage bereft of life. No smoke rises from the chimney, no sound is heard behind closed doors of lacquered wood. Then he walks off, away from the empty house and away from her eyes brimming with tears. The boy starts growing from a scrawny frame to an athletic build, never once does he look back. Is this the journey of a hero? The kind he spoke of?

Realm of ice and force of storms
Mocking death my answer calls
Before foes my blade is keen
Demons and mortals not a god is seen
Arrow's flight and fatal swing
Reprisal and a steely ring
One remains, the world asunder
A wolf stands where all faded

Verses of sorrow and rage shake Ciras back to her senses, a poem of fury singing its ire. The reciter wasn't that unknown boy, his voice belonging to the repulsive scoundrel inexplicably aiding Kain. Her sight recovers in the timeliest manner, wide-eyed horror greeting a scene of someone impaled through the chest. Materialising itself once more, the land of wintry wrath now devours the ground carrying everyone. The haunting image of resurrection appears, death reversing itself through a flash of lightning and frigid wind. The killed becomes the killer, a piercing wound surrounded by frost seen on the monster's chest. The eyes close as if peace has arrived, fire consumes the dead like a parchment fed to a furnace. It's a surreal sight, for who would imagine a diabolical entity understanding tranquillity upon death?

Silence prevails, the victor facing the one he helped. Inner fire unable to sustain the exterior, Kain sheds his armour as darkest steel melts like snow before the springtime sun. Eyes of crimson red remain unchanged, the creature of madness moves towards him. Knowing things have entered another state of peril, the hulking knight is already physically drained from the previous fight. Such is the price of having the River of Inimitable Steel. Using one Relic isn't a burden, but two at the same time would have killed any user. Kain is no ordinary wielder, but not even a monster could have ended up unscathed from the crushing weight oppressing body and mind.

The menacing figure closes in on his newly found quarry, shoulders hunched and arms never straying paints a portrait of death made flesh. A cool gentle wind breezes past those before a murderous intent, a man of similar build and features stands between hunter and prey. His garb is a long coat dark and blue, his pants of a lighter shade and boots of leather grey. Brown gloves cover his hands from below the elbows, a curved blade sheathed is gripped near its small rectangular crosspiece. Unlike the red-eyed monster, his hair is long and flowing. Like the entity during his previous form, the stranger's straight almond eyes are of azure blue.

Deathly silence is the duel between them, an eternity taking place. Then miraculously, he turns and walks away. Not the unnamed saviour but that unknown monster, such is how the standstill ends.

“Aor.”

Words calm and firm catch Adarl, Lolyx, and Ciras off their guard, for they have never seen someone introducing himself in this manner. As for Kain, he takes a stride.

“Enough, Kain Lamrec. I know you want to cut me down. Do not test me.”

Kain knows his full name, something snaps inside his mind. There's something in him denying the truth, that very thing moves him forward by a single step. Aor responds in the same way, his crouching posture preparing to strike.

“This is my final warning, foolish boy knight. Gods do not exist, but know that I am the nearest thing to one.”

Ignoring words of cold mercy, a huge stride takes the raging hulk within striking distance. His eyes burn with unyielding fire, his war cry hauntingly reminds Adarl and Lolyx of Cale. Dismissing the Cleaver of Mountains making its descent, a single flick of Aor's arm begets a flash of steel and a giant's head.

The fight is over as Kain stays rooted on the spot, eyes hard as stone widened before narrowing. Everything inside him screams a warning which must be heeded, for this is a god making his stand. A demon and monster he's unable to defeat, words denying the existence of gods nothing less than truthful mockery. His heart is already racing like a horse provoked by a pack of slavering wolves, his body coated in sweat. Speech departs from his mind, silence becomes his only friend.

“Where are the children?”

Roused from stupor and emotional numbness, Kain turns his sight towards Ciras. Her bravery is a timely balm, a target the white-haired monster of a god is heading to. Helplessness remains as king, a conqueror paralysing him.

Move! Move, damn it!

“A brave man any given day can see, a woman of resolve even years may not be fortunate enough to behold. You, fair maiden, are one such woman.”

Fingers caressing Ciras' chin, Aor's azure eyes gaze into her. Terror seizes the Teutonian, her courage exposing itself as nothing more than a facade. There is no warmth in that touch, it's as if this person has died despite his living breath and visible life in those eyes. Then her panic vanishes, like dew before the noonday sun it ceases.

“They were nothing more than what people like you would call a ghost.”

“Wait, ghosts actually exist?”

Reckless words blurting out from her lips, Lolyx immediately curses herself for being the same kind of person as Cale the cretin. Her father was right all along, that being an idiot has never been a question of who and what but when and whether.

“Ghosts are but a figment of longings and regrets. Laws are pulling the strings and puppets are what you see.”

“You mean yourself? What do you know about that thing causing those monsters to appear?”

Adarl's animosity shocks both Lolyx and Ciras, it's not so much a matter of blame but the undisguised hate against someone who just happened to be there. Getting up with a sigh, Aor turns his back.

“Tell me, coward! What are you afraid of?”

“You demand an answer, an answer I shall give.”

The caressing air heralding Aor's coming announces its arrival once more, it is as if this is the only answer to her anguish. Adarl's mind is now the mirror image of her willowy body, perhaps more fragile. Eyes of bluish calm never shying away from the challenge of a victim's glare, Aor's long white hair billow with the wind. Then he speaks, words concerning a boy he knows so well about.

“A wolf knows best every man, those like him are known by demons as well. It takes a monster to slay a demon, a cycle to prove two sides of the same coin. From evil demons are begotten, from the world monsters are birthed.”

As he departs before the awestruck and seething, the nearest thing to a god leaves behind these words.

“Befriend a wolf and he will tear out your throat. Extend unto him your hand and he shall bite it off.”

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The same thing is happening again, nothing has changed. Aeravor's unconscious self wakes up, the Relentless One descending to the bottom of an icy lake. His eyes are closed, his body remains sober. He's branded an enemy of the world, but that's because Ji'Yon was declared as one in the first place. His only love became a foe because the world couldn't tolerate her way of life, its enmity conceiving vengeance. Part of him was tiring, the other half determined to reach the other end.

The other end of life...

The other end of winter...

The other end of the past...

Will it be the future?

His back gently reaches the bottom of a watery pit, opened eyes greeting an endless stretch of clearest blue. Not that of the sky but one of frigid water. He still can breathe, this means he's alive. He remembers someone calling him Iarlben, one of regal birth and the queen of Homm'Nua with whom he shared the same bed. Aeravor understands the meaning of that word, for this is the only path he knows: A life belonging to the sword and mind of steel, for Iarlben means Steelborn.

Then something erupts inside him, a fiercely burning fire stoked inside a forge. He recalls what was once said to Ji'Yon, it was a beautiful night of festive fireworks. Life is about lighting one's pyre, to set itself alight so nothing will be wasted. There is nothing fanciful about dying, yet here his life stands and laughing at death itself. A mother he never knew made sure a curse could save him, not one of bitterness or words but something else. His mentor's words haunt him, Araea eos Clochneid's statement snapping at his heels at every turn.

“No life deserves to be ended without a chance to live if it's wrong for a person to be hanged without reason. So live on even if you can only do so as Chaos Incarnate. If the world hates you, mock it. If people wear masks all the time, remember these words from a friend long gone: Never a hero and never will be.”

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Glossary
Gi'ya: Yaguryo term for a brothel.

Wednesday, 26 January 2022

ESOtivity Mk 32

Note: This post was started weeks ago and finished yesterday.

This is most likely going to be a post full of rambling, ranting, and raving. Right now, my brain is in semi-hibernation mode. If there's anything I understand about myself, it'd be that my focus thrives and dies by momentum. If there is something for me to focus on, then I can keep going like a Duracell bunny. Once the momentum fizzles out, however, that's it. This is why music is so important. It allows me to maintain focus instead of relaxing.

Someone, please call the Divine Prosecution

Right now, I have five characters on my roster. I might have mentioned it before, but I've made good my decision to roll a Breton Warden. Unlike Darien Gautier, there's no such thing as a Stamina Breton build. Then there's my fifth character. Namely, a Khajiit.

Before I continue, let me point out that the cat may or may not be Baanzai-dar. So if you see a cat with a name that's weirdly Japanese looking, that's not necessarily me.

I find Khajiit to be an interesting race to use. While I've yet to reach the full picture (something which I suspect I can only do by running different Khajiit on different classes), I realised building a Khajiit DPS Nightblade wasn't easy. We're not talking about an Orc Stamina DPS Nightblade where base Weapon Damage can break the 4K ceiling if you know how to play it right. Khajiit seems to be that classic crit-based race where base damage and defence are on the lower end. In other words, it's not that easy. Coupled with the fact post-Update 29 has narrowed down the crit DPS build options, I had some very interesting decisions to make. More specifically, do I want more damage and less sustain or vice-versa? Unlike my other characters, rolling a Jap cat meant I have to risk one end or the other. For Magicka DPS Nightblades, it's a good thing they got Debilitate and Siphoning Attacks. They did help a lot for my Khajiit. However, there's a tricky part: What must I do to ensure using the Shadow Mundus stone effect could be legit?

This is where Alcast came in and say hi. Well, sorta. Now allow me to point out a few things:

1. The article was dated pre-update 29, so I needed to make the necessary modding. This was where others came in and said hi. Personally, I find the range of 6800 to 7000 to be more attainable for crit builds instead of 7K+. If I have to choose between way beyond 7000 and way below 6800, it's definitely the former. Penetration is now harder to cap.

2. Alcast just happened to be my most convenient source. If I want to, I can google names like Hack The Minotaur, Brah We Got This, and Niniskya. Simply put, I'm being lazy.

Ultimately, the mark I set would be either at least 53% (for Nightblades and Templars) or 47% (for Sorcerers and Dragonknights). This means I had to choose between Debilitate and Siphoning Attacks with the other replaced by an Assassination ability so that the critical chance could be set at 53%. More specifically, with a decimal number.

At this point, I need to point out my weapon trait is running on Sharpened. This resulted in Penetration reaching 8K+. Considering Khajiit most likely would be lacking in base damage (i.e. an observation based on what I have), I don't mind that.

At the same time, my personal minimum ceiling for Spell/Weapon Damage for DPS would be 3K. Any number below that means I need to make some decisions with Recovery most likely in the firing line. Good thing Wardens have their netches. I like netches. I really do.

Mk 32 and Gryphon's Fury

I'll be honest here: I got sold on Diamond's Victory until Update 32. Then it happened: Update 32 triggered the strategist in me. I don't consider myself a hardcore player. However, I do see myself as a sandbox player. If something is possible in theory, there's every chance I'd try to see if it really works. Of course, actual crafting materials would be involved. This means I can only be as harebrained as circumstances allow me to. Even Elon "the Tesla dude" Musk needed to burn his money to see whether the Space X car idea was truly as crazy as Sheogorath himself. And we all know no one can ever spend money which is never there in the first place. That's unless you're using your father's credit card.


In a true blue Oda Nobunaga fashion, I decided to do an Idiot of Owari by ditching a full legendary Diamond's Victory set for a full legendary Gryphon's Fury. A combination of Mother's Sorrow and Gryphon's Fury would mean I have to push the critical damage as high as possible. As a result, my choice was 5 light and 2 medium. For better survivability, I opted for medium body armour together with a medium belt. The tricky part came in the form of which Mundus stone to use? The intuitive answer was Thief since it adds up to the critical chance and I needed to proc the critical damage as much as possible.

A recent Asylum Sanctorium guild run, however, convinced me that maybe I've been looking at the wrong place. While I wouldn't be surprised if not every group member was running Hodor's Reflexes, the Hodor table clearly contradicted the ESO encounter log. Under Hodor's Reflexes for DPS, I was the second-highest Hodor just behind the guild leader who happened to be a Nightblade. Under the ESO encounter log, however, I was placed 5th in damage dealing. Being the highest damage-dealing Sorcerer (i.e. there were three of us) didn't matter a Sheogorath's cheese to me. Ditto for the fact I never have a good DPS record in running Asylum Sanctorium and Halls of Fabrication for some reason. If there's a possible way to up the damage score, why not try it?

This came to two questions:

1. Did I mess it up by using Precise instead of Infused?

2. Should 47% critical chance have been enough for me instead of post 50% if I wanted to use Shadow instead of Thief?

One good thing about running a Daggerfall Covenant character is that gaining access to the Thief Mundus stone in Alik'r Desert is as easy as going from point A to point Z in a straight line. Literally. The good thing about the said character doing Cadwell's Almanec? Reaching the Shadow Mundus stone in Greenshade via Marbruk is as easy as going to your nearest convenience store.

This gave me the chance to experiment. There were two ways for me to test this out: Either annihilating a target dummy or obliterating trolls. The former would be the intuitive approach but more of a hassle. The latter would be counter-intuitive but easier depending on whether you've unlocked the Honrich Tower wayshrine at the Rift. And besides, it makes crafting Hunding's Rage gear so much easier.

How I got to go about doing it was this: First, I wayshrined to Shrikes' Aerie to get the Thief. Then I wayshrined to Honrich Tower to experiment on the frost trolls since Trollslayer Gully is synonymous with troll spawning. After killing two of them, I jotted down the damage range. So long I could get the minimum and maximum damage count, it's good enough. Then I wayshrined to Marbruk, switched to Shadow, and re-experiment.

While I won't say I have the genius of Han Xin and Fa Zheng, I'd say I have their memory span. Not only can I remember the ones doing me injustice from Henderson Primary School to ITE Dover with Gan Eng Seng (Secondary) School in between, remembering the DPS numbers I got before I decided to experiment the switch was surprisingly easy. Before that, my DPS range for troll killing is at a consistent 18K range. With Thief and Infused trait, the numerical range went up to 18K-22K. Switching to Shadow was the fun part: The DPS range was at 18K to 23K.

What that meant would be...

1. In terms of solo content involving trolls, Shadow was slightly better than Thief.

2. Despite this, the outcome hinted at a better DPS in a group boss fight. The longer the fight, the more critical hits I'd land. At the same time, opting for Infused instead of Precise means my overall base damage would be better especially due to a combination of the Lightning Damage glyph and Energized passive.

A Japanese speaking Japanese in an English speaking guild? インポシブル!!!!!!!
More specifically two of them. To be honest, I found it to be a pleasant surprise although there's no way I was able to communicate with them. I may know a bit about Japanese culture and history, but that's because of a curiosity that my country's educational system is unable to destroy.

Nevertheless, the language barrier wasn't an excuse for them to type in Japanese one after the other. This is not to say the Japanese don't understand English. If there's anything one of the most hilarious moments in recent Kansai history had taught us, it'd be that the Japanese don't need the likes of University College London, Georgetown University, and Columbia University to have a laugh.

In retrospect, it's interesting that the Japanese duo (I say duo because I don't know their gender) decided to type in Japanese instead of English. This prompted me to google how the zone filter in the game chat work. More specifically the Japanese end. Guess what I unearthed?

To have a decent idea of how difficult it is for a non-Japanese game to impress the Japanese from Hokkaido and Tohoku to Kyushu and Shikoku, let me use two celebrity weddings as a comparison.

On one end of the aisle, you have the marriage between Park "confirmed a better Park-Choi story than the original one" Shin-hye and Choi "confirmed a better Choi-Park ending than the original one" Tae-joon. People are talking about it and it's only natural for any decent human being to wish the couple all the best in the days ahead.

Then on the other, you have Aragaki "unrelated to Gaki no Tsukai" Yui announcing her marriage to Hoshino "not Urobuchi" Gen. Beyond Japan, I guessed no one talked about it. Within Japan, however, there's apparently some kind of national meltdown towards a national waifu no longer there and waiting to be replaced (apparently, that'd be Yoshioka "Yoshi-R" Riho if internet news is to be trusted).

The difference in global exposure happened to be an indication of how insular Japan is as a nation. On one hand, the toxicity of Western politics failed to firebomb the nation from Hokkaido and Tohoku to Kyushu and Shikoku. On the other end, necessary changes were hamstrung. In other words, the anomaly within Japan is bound to apply to other areas including gaming. This made ESO's presence no small feat especially given Final Fantasy XIV's status as Japan's national MMO. Seriously, even Sakaguchi "not Ango" Hironobu said so.

This comes to how likely is it for a native Japanese player to join an English speaking guild since there's already a specific Made-In-Japan version. In fact, language is both a wall that separates and ties that bind. It's quite interesting since people always go for the language they're most comfortable with. In short, it's only natural for native Japanese players to visit the official Japanese site instead of the official site. This is truly what makes the presence of two apparent native Japanese players in my guild as intriguing as Breton politics. Just don't ask me whether Yoshi-R is one of them because it's a question as dumb as asking me whether the other one is Yoshi-P.



New zone+new story=Elder Scrolls VI?
Only 2 days more and we're going to have the grand reveal from the West to Japan. When ZOS first teased the new expansion as going to a place never before seen, I hazarded a guess and say it's Akavir. The nature of the trailer, however, may have indicated others were right in saying it'd be at the High Isle.

There's no denying the Celtic feel to the trailer music. Since Akavir is inspired by the Oriental East, the music couldn't have indicated it's Akavir. On the other hand, High Rock is largely inspired by the Celto-Roman culture responsible for giving us the Arthurian legends of yore (the Reachfolk would be more of the Proto-Celtic people defined by earlier tales like the Ulster Cycle and Tuatha Dé Danann).

But what if it's actually about the Direnni elves? Let's make a daring assumption here: What if a descendant of the Direnni Altmer decided to stage a separatist war? After all, a Direnni kingdom for the Direnni sounds patriotic, right? But what if the Direnni are either too few or nigh non-existent? In the events of Elder Scrolls: Daggerfall, only one NPC was of Direnni blood: Medora Direnni. While this means a Direnni can start the new story at High Isle, it also implied that there wouldn't be many of them left by the Sixth Century of the Second Era. In other words, the so-called Direnni kingdom may be more about one to remember the glory of Direnni rule and replicate it upon... yep, you guessed it right: High Rock.

A Direnni separatist movement may sound like the Altmer version of the Stormcloak rebellion, but it could serve as the storyline for The Elder Scrolls VI. I'd say two possible scenarios:

1. The Thalmor retained their grip on Cyrodiil. As a result, they decide to orchestrate an invasion into the regions of High Rock, Hammerfell, and Orsinium.

2. The events of Skyrim made sure the Thalmor's hold on Imperial lands got Fus-Ro-Dah'ed, Alduin or no Alduin. As a result, whatever events surrounding northwestern Tamriel would indicate the Thalmor are forced to invade High Rock, Hammerfell, and Orsinium. Speaking of getting Fus-Ro-Dah'ed...

If this storyline goes through (not that I'm going to be responsible for that), it'd be interesting to see whether faction choosing is going to be less patriotic and more political. Three factions for the player to choose: High Rock (Bretons), Hammerfell (Redguards), and Orsinium (Orcs).

Within each faction, there may be sub-factions.

High Rock:
Ring of Daggers and King's Guard. The former believed in a unified Breton kingdom under a High King while the latter is the legacy of King Ranser of Shornhelm out to secure independence for the entire Rivenspire region.

Hammerfell:
Crowns and Forebears. In the aftermath of the Lhotunic faction's downfall, Hammerfell enters an uneasy peace between two feuding factions. The Crowns insist the old ways are enough for the Redguards to thrive and prosper while the Forebears insist on diplomacy with the Bretons as the best defence.

Orsinium:
Faith of Trinimac and Cult of Mauloch. Ever since the polarising rule of Kurog gro-Orsinium, the Orsimer were no strangers to the conflict between two religions. Brother set against brother and neighbour against neighbour, the future of Orsinium hinges on whose god is the one true god. But before that, the Orcs have a debt of gratitude to settle when the Imperials made sure there remained a future for the Orsimer people after Orsinium was sacked for the third time.

Monday, 17 January 2022

A Requiem From Winter Past: Chapter 4

AGE WARNING:
This work is one of dark nature. If you're below the age of 16, then you're better off reading something else. I don't profess to follow the rules of my country where only foreigners like G.R.R Martin and Miura Kentaro can write dark fiction.


A Requiem From Winter Past
~The Wolf, Lion, And Maiden Fair~
(Written by Cocteau L'Enfant Naturel)

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3

Chapter 4: Today And Yesterday

"Let us fight today, for yesterday we lived. Let us honour today, for yesterday's grace is for this day."
~Benediction of the Worthy (taken from the Annals of the Three Thrones)

)0(

“Erm, Sir…”

“What is it, Grett? Spit it out before I do it for you.”

“I believe you need to learn how to relax.”

“I believe I need to learn how to kill those morons from the Fifth Unit. Do you want to talk? If not, please get the…”

“It’s Cale Ryvers again. He lost it against the lads from Tynis and Wearsor. Buff poker to be exact.”

“Don’t tell me he borrowed an iron stick from his father and slaughtered them all.”

“Floored the entire lot with only fists and his knickers on in public view. But don’t worry, Sir. No one stole anything.”

“Get him here! I’ll make sure he's dead and I don’t care how you’re going to knock him out!”

Before a not-so-distant past, Trov Lovens is unable to mask his rueful grin. A season swiftly passed, the inevitable stoking an inner forge. The Northern Lion has known Pilaes Ryvers for many years, Grett Mains being the only other soldier of that generation close to him. A knock makes its presence heard, the guest none other than Grett himself.

“Announcing combat readiness, Sir! Permission to…”

“Don’t ask permission over simple matters, Sergeant Grett Mains.”

Chortles and a friendly slap greeting Grett, a grey-haired veteran knocks the breath from the stocky brunette’s lungs. As his second in command laughs in resignation, the grizzled soldier sneaks a glance at a banner in white, one with an emblazoned lion’s head coloured red. History rushes at him like a storm, memories a great deluge pouring forth. He recalls clearly Pilaes’ shocking revelation five years ago, that very day where once more he was reminded of his comrade’s resignation from the military.

“I know this sounds absurd, but please keep this a secret between us. That boy… I mean Cale… he's my only shot at redemption. I shouldn’t have left that pregnant woman to die even though she’s an enemy’s wife.”

“Pil, you retarded moron,” growls Trov, his steps pausing halfway. “If that boy isn’t your kin, why did you feed him a fat bastard lie?”

Futile questions begetting a bugle blared, Trov Lovens can only settle for the truth as clear as pristine waters. Stepping forward and out, he mutters the very words he spoke to Leonus Gaias Eliaden three years ago.

“That boy doesn’t have his father’s blood, but he deserves his father’s name.”

)0(

The morning sky is uncharacteristically warm, a blazing sun wringing sweat from all beneath its glare. The division headquarters of Teslaide comprises of two buildings: One for the soldiers, the other reserved for the equipment. The training square is a wedge between the two, a place where lions and cubs gather for most of the day. One season’s worth of orientation reaps a profit deserved, only a rich man’s pampered son would protest against the Father’s will. They say boys are born to banter and play, but men are made to fight. The journey for every boy has ended, every man must now choose for himself a future and tomorrow.

Thrill and anticipation paving the way for his first day, Cale Ryvers is decked in a tabard of leather scales. Boyish passion burns in the sandy blond, sapphire gaze scrutinising his long-sleeved undershirt of dullish green. Donning a spangenhelm, the feel of a spear’s oaken haft tells him not to lose focus. The time is near, bugles announce the gaffer’s coming. Not knowing what is to come, the lad nevertheless hopes his first mission would be a major one. Something like hunting down a criminal wanted for murder and arson, patrolling the streets be damned.

“Stand guard! Attention!”

Formal atmosphere permeates the Teslaide division, excitement ceding ground to tension. Trov Lovens makes his entrance without pomp, this is a seasoned warrior used to braving the fires of war. Eyes of iron daring any to challenge his stand, an old soldier full of scars reveals a living bastion yet to fall. Shirt of polished mail intensifying an aura of steel, his helm bears the visage of a snarling lion.

“Is everything okay, Grett? You better don’t...”

“All is fine and dandy, Sir,” answers a saluting Grett, his respectful stance defying the jesting words.

“Good,” says Trov, his reaction one of amusement. “As the gaffer of Teslaide division, I welcome you all to the Lionian family. I'm not good with words and far worse at tolerating grown-up cretins, so I’m allocating your duties for today. Good luck in getting promoted while not getting yourselves killed.”

Despite the grim reality uttered, every recruit tries his best not to laugh. They shared jokes aplenty over dying like a hero after pleasing women like a man, as boys they made boastful claims of conquests and accomplishments underneath the sheets. Marves Creek recalls with muffled mirth what his best friend did last summer, an incident earning him an audience in the gaffer's office.

“I told these idiots from Tynis and Wearsor to shut up. After all, I took defeat like a man!”

“Just tell me what they did, said, or both.”

“A song about Lolyx. Went like…”

“I changed my mind. I’m not interested in the size of her stack, how attractive her arse is, and why Tamurians are always so physically prominent. Did her old man say anything?”

“Good job. But don’t sin again.”

“Spoken like a true parish. We’re blessed to have the old Barn down the Straight Street.”

“Enough sniggers and retarded thoughts! Look at me!”

His voice cut through laughter like a hot knife slicing into butter, Trov Lovens inhales deeply and exhales slowly. Recent events at Lindel had escalated swiftly to a deadly skirmish, a facade of granite is the sole solution against unease churning incessantly. A handsome bounty was offered, many were the hunters taking up the offer. Be they men, women, or mere lads, severed heads in gunny sacks soon served as gruesome warnings to the City of Bounties. Then the greatest act of temerity arrived, a brazen show of arrogance. Romus was set aflame by damning news, someone thinking it a good idea to have a donkey ferrying saddlebags bulging with bloodied heads. Towards the gates of the Emperor's seat and left with no choice, Antios III had to approve military mobilisation throughout the Empire.

Wonder if those people upstairs are now having apoplexy over a crazy brown man. His Imperial Majesty may be the Iron Yew, but he's no iron god.

Mention of the Senate and Emperor alike whispered in the mind, Trov hollers at his charges. As a leader, he must make sure as few mothers as possible would have to grief for sons forever lost. As a man, he must take responsibility for those below him. As a soldier, he knows what an imperfect world looks like.

“Take serious note of this: All of us are part of the Lionian Brethren. Not legionnaires, cavaliers, or those Sagrissers going around without armour. Engagement should only be done with orders given.”

Damn the gods, they’re just boys embarking on the path of men.

“No one is going to care who’s your father or grandfather. Learn to obey or learn how to die. Understand?”

“Yes! Sir!”

The gaffer of Teslaide must now take an inevitable plunge of faith, a twisted joke directed against his unbelief in gods. With a hand resting on his superior’s shoulder, Grett Mains focuses on the boys instead of a man he spent years fighting alongside.

“As you know by now, there’s a case of someone causing trouble at Lindel. Don't ask me how a brown man managed to kill and bail. You wouldn’t like the details.”

Grett no longer got his firm grip on the veteran, a show of weakness is the last thing a person of authority needs. Trov feels his throat going dry, but the leader must keep battling away till the bitter end. Though a Wildebrand’s ability as an assassin in the woods should not be underestimated, taunting the Empire in such a brazen manner wasn't the most reassuring event in the annals of imperial history. There’s definitely something about that murderous sellsword that doesn’t seem right, only a madman would go this far in mocking the authorities.

”Refer to the information given just now unless you all want to die. Grett, elaborate further.”

“It’s been rumoured a suspicious figure was seen in Lancershire three days ago.”

Scratching his head in frustration, a clearly disturbed Grett Mains continues his briefing.

“But don’t ask me whether a parish's pretty lass down the Straight Street is more than capable of fibbing. We all know the prettier the girl, the better the liar.”

Booming laughter abruptly invading the square, Trov heaves silent gratitude towards his assistant.

“Right now, your immediate task is to scout the surrounding areas. The First to Fourth Units will conduct this outside the walls. The Sixth and Seventh Units will be in charge of patrolling the streets while the Fifth Unit will be on standby in case shit happens.”

Silence follows Trov’s command, a simple strategy drafted by Grett. Unlike the boys before him, the Northern Lion still has to fulfil his duty as an official member of the Imperial Military Corps. Recent happenings were anything but peaceful, sporadic clashes breaking out between his fellow Hallenians and the Slarvs along the border. Women and children were taken from raided villages, strict orders prohibiting reprisals like for like the only factor preventing greater conflict. Blastus Ferg isn't the most polite speaker, his words are quite often creative enough to insult anyone's character or intellect without the need for obscenities. In true Hallenian fashion, however, he is nothing less than an object of worship for every common lad. Minimal losses from both the military and civilians made twice as sure of that, all that is left would be negotiations and talking shit.

“What about the lads at Manchet? I thought they are supposed to be the best of the best since Blastus the Dryer is their boss.”

Incredulous stares besiege Cale Ryvers, the sandy blond’s question catching the entire Fifth Unit off guard. He’s supposed to be an idiot, not someone asking questions involving tactics and strategy.

“Good point, Cale Ryvers. I heard that you’re a cretin, but you obviously have a sense of humour. Blastus Ferg as the Dryer indeed. I'll remember to tell him that.”

Trov’s answer causes another eruption of laughter from the training square, inner amusement blooming underneath a mask of flint. How can a stupid person be able to think like someone ten times more intelligent, a fool functioning like a person worth much more? But here he is, an idiot perceiving actual things beyond what others can see. The last time he checked, Manchet remains the nearest division to the capital.

“Sir, it's not good to say things like that,” whispers Grett, disapproval showing though a worried frown. “Pil’s lad is a proven starter of fights. Remember Tynis and Wearsor?”

“I'm stating the cold hard truth. A damned shame I can't earn a pence for every problem in this world. Otherwise, I'd be living like a king in a majestic castle perched on a hill. And you have to call me a god.”

“You might as well call Cale the second Brondte Romus, as much as others would stone me for blasphemy.”

“To be honest, I'd want to see that day. I mean Cale, not you.”

)0(

The forest’s eerie calm brings forth serenity, a stark contradiction not gone unnoticed by both visitors. Years passed since the sacking of Redcart, a brazen group of bandits blamed for the tragedy. Within a single day, women were ravished and the people slaughtered. Then something happened, be it divine retribution gone horribly wrong or intervention of another kind. By the end of the massacre, no one was left alive. Whether it was that unknown force of violence or the wicked fell by his neighbour's blade, it remains a mystery no daring soul can uncover.

“I hope you know what you’re doing, Adarl. It’s already summer, but why is this forest so cold?”

“You’re not the only one, Lolyx. Don’t worry, I know what I’m doing.”

A shivering girl of dusky complexion can only nod in reply, she was the only one insane enough to accompany Adarl in an absurd quest for answers. She hopes her father won’t sense something amiss, the last time she got herself into trouble resulted in confinement. Using Cale as an excuse should have been a good idea, something that would work on others. Unfortunately for everyone else, idiots are never known to figure out the simplest things when it comes to dealing with people.

The willowy brunette knows what her companion is talking about, for nature does not go against itself. From the moment they stepped into the outskirts of a destroyed village, faint whispers were already heard. If not for Lolyx’s strong faith in the Holy Quintet, she would have retreated. Cursed with foolhardiness yet blessed with the willingness to sacrifice more than a limb for a friend, there are indeed similarities between Cale and Lolyx. A fact which both would rather die than to admit, their history written in barbs and quibbling.

She cannot back away now, regret is not an option. The elven merchant told her all the information required in the first place, none of them withheld from Lolyx. Adarl Tayne starts cursing a nosy Rhyan Morris under her breath, vocabulary acquired as a serving girl emptied swiftly. If only he is half as brave as that sandy blond, he who gave her the confidence to be strong all those years ago.

“Stick thin and ugly? Sorry, I don’t give a shit. Guess that’s why they call me retarded, huh?”

Belligerence is one thing, the ability to survive a fight would always ensure integrity lasts at least another day. Win, lose, or draw, Cale Ryvers is never one to take back his words. No matter how logically absurd or morally right, this is a man of impetuous chivalry with dreams of heroism.

“Remember the day Cale took on a bear?”

All that is eerie and sombre evaporates quickly, Lolyx the source of comfort. A giggle escapes from Adarl’s lips. Because of a dare and Rhyan's mocking words, Cale agreed to take on a bear terrorising the children playing in the fields. It was two years ago during early autumn, the day when a lad of sixteen winters defeated the odds and outlasted death. It was a trio of little ones spreading the word, Jhonar, Hannar, and Shennar inspiring a work of art. She starts singing a song composed by Cheril, a friend boasting a talent for music.

“Send the next! Send the next!”
Said the bear and moaned the bear.
“For delicious were the previous ones.”


Joining in the fun, Lolyx's lower pitch compliments perfectly Adarl's higher tone.

Then it saw our hero bold.
Armed with fists but not with wits.
Our hero bold broke his arm.
Armed with fists but not with wits.
Our hero bold broke its teeth.
Armed with a rock but not with wits.
No next one, no next one.
For not delicious is the final one.


Both maidens break out in peals of laughter, the comedic image of childish heroism not lost on them. When Cale stumbled upon Lolyx’s doorstep, he was visibly mauled. Within hours after having his wounds dressed, he recovered swiftly by devouring more than five helpings of food. This was an event biting a massive chunk off her family’s budget for the next month, it took Lolyx at least twice as long to forgive him. Cale Ryvers was called that lion amongst men within days, for tales of his beastly appetite spread like conflagration driven by the strongest winds. Despite the jest contained within a false accolade, Cale wore it as a badge of honour as if he’s really one. If only people would take more seriously what children say, for adults are always greater liars than them.

Then a haunting song is sung, a response to the previous one. It is not the singers sending a chill down the spine, but the lyrics which  Adarl and Lolyx know too well. This is the introduction to the greatest legend the Empire has seen, a song of ambition and source of Cale’s unattainable dream.

Brondte Romus, a lion of yore.
The prodigal son and a useless brat.
Wanted to be a hero but mocked a fool.

His retainer was Laec the Fire-haired.
Both armour bearer and best of friends.
He beheld the beauty of an elven maid,
Earned her fire and shrewdness his.

Mocked a fool but now a hero.
Dark and brooding but full of mirth.
Is there ever a man true like him?


A group of children singing loud encircle the visitors, their enthusiasm the freedom to play. Spectral forms instilling neither fear nor intrigue, Adarl and Lolyx nonetheless stay rooted to the ground. They know the manner of emotions that should be there, yet they feel nothing apart from sorrow. One of them waves in their direction, a little girl wearing her hair down.

“Ciras! We have guests!”

The girl is nothing short of beautiful, her red hair trimmed at the shoulders and a faint smile one of lamentation. A beauty housing an icy soul, her hazel brown eyes are the direct opposite of Cale’s irises of sapphire fire.

“So you’re Ciras?”

From a question asked the sting of jealousy comes, standing before Adarl is an unattainable portrait of beauty. Not in terms of the superficial, but rather something else unseen. She suppresses the feeling, for it is not right morally and logically.

“Yes.”

Giving a bow, Ciras places a hand on her chest.

“You’re a Teutonian,” says Adarl, Lolyx staying her tongue. “I hear that this is the manner of a smallborne’s greeting there.”

“I was born a mere seven miles from the realm of wolves.”

“Wolves?”

“Gastony. A place where it is elves with the souls of wolves reside. We called them Monsters of the Gods. They refused women when offered and rejected gold when given. It's a good thing they prefered to be left alone.”

“Sounds like a scary place full of scary people,” quips Lolyx, her interruption earning disapproval from Adarl.

“I’m sorry about my friend. She speaks too fast at times.”

Shaking her head in response and with a smile, Ciras continues her story. One guardian to know her tale is never enough, Kain would always respond like a rock.

“I was born in poverty. My mother gave me up for adoption in hopes that I could have a better life. However, my local parish betrayed me.”

“Betrayed?”

There is an edge in Lolyx’s words, Adarl knows better than to play the unwitting agitator.

“To settle his debts, he sold me to slavers from the south. For thirty crowns of gold, I was promised the life of a queen among the Sudhlits.”

At the mention of such a clergyman, Lolyx trembles in rage. Men of moral reproach exist, denial from ignorant folks the greatest blasphemy. Like a wolf in sheep’s clothing, they feast on the flock under their care. Her father has always lived an upright life, his faith never wavering despite the death of his beloved wife. This is why Lolyx will always respect her father, the reason why she would rather commit suicide than acknowledge the wrong authority. So what if she is only an adopted child, a Tamurian instead of a Causacean?

“What happened afterwards?”

Lolyx's question catches Adarl unaware, undisguised animosity surprising her more than the deed.

“I slaughtered them all.”

It is not Ciras who replied, for the answer is spoken in a harsh tone. Low, guttural, and composed, the voice is seven parts man and three parts beast. Turning around, Adarl and Lolyx behold a hulking man. Dressed in a simple garb of tunic, pants, and boots, a gauntlet of steel is strapped to his right arm covered with a sleeve. His eyes bear resemblance to Cale's jewels of deep bright blue, but volatile wrath swirls inside a hard unyielding gaze. The top half of his face is covered by burns, the disfigurement stopping at the hairline. Wearing a dark brooding visage with matted black hair reaching his shoulders, the stranger points towards a random direction past them.

“Go. This is no place for damsels, fillies, and little boys.”

“Wait! I need to know…”

“If I am no knight bound by oath, you two would already be feeding the crows.”

The stranger’s features warp into something bestial, a flock of carrion birds scattered by his wrath.

“That boy at Redcart. I need to know whether he’s alive.”

Another person speaks, this time around a white-haired elf whose complexion is brown like Lolyx's. The adopted daughter of Ashter Barnes saw him days ago, it was during one of her errands. Forced to take a detour passing by a brothel due to a group of sneering Causacean men, she had to thank the Holy Quintet this was no house of slavery situated in a nether region. Lolyx has nothing but sympathy towards women sold to the worst form of servitude, she got nothing but severe disdain for men abusing them while wearing a mask of righteousness. The Seven Hells to those who say limited numbers mean a lesser evil, for justice and wickedness are to be absolute.

But he wasn’t a simple scoundrel shabbily dressed, nor was he a hypocrite dressed in finery. There’s a taunter inside him, a cold exterior mocking every shred of her faith. It's as if he treated every person as dross, both good and evil meant to be consumed in a furnace. No logical reasoning could be found if her observation must be justified, it was nothing more than a conclusion conceived by instincts and an answer birthed by impulse.

“Who are you?”

Before the unnamed guardian’s question, the smirking stranger sends a whistle towards Ciras.

“Kain!”

Before Ciras' effort to reign him in. the hulking knight pays no heed. With a roar shaking the heavenly foundations, a woodsman axe materialises out of nowhere. The weapon is a fine work of craftsmanship, the standard contradicting its unsightly wielder. The haft was long, straight, and made from the finest wood, the keen edge of its blade flat and wide. A single swing reveals a well-balanced make, fluid stroke belying Kain's massive frame. Attempting to cut down the knavish elf, the opponent vanishes from view and stands behind Ciras.

“Let her go, you demon!”

With a shrug, the rogue ignores Lolyx’s ire and screaming voice. Suddenly appearing between his object of protection and target of murderous anger, Kain snarls at an unperturbed knave flaunting his arrogance.

“Name is Aeravor. Wildebrand by trade, a bastard by birth. A nice weapon you got there.”

A single step is taken. As if meeting either an old friend or a sworn enemy, the mad warrior’s axe reveals a visible bluish hue and an audible hum. It is a familiar sight to Aeravor, a weapon whose previous owner was a mentor he never asked for. Cleaver of Mountains is its name, a Relic like the Edge of Answerer. The colour and sound are not for show, they are signs of power unleashed. It's been years since Aeravor last fought an interesting opponent. With fluid grace, the Relentless One unsheathes the Edge of Answerer. Its blade laced with lightning, his mind wonders whether this fellow can be as good as Ioin eos Imear.

Heh, he must have been your son, Araea.

“I’m not going to foot the bill if you die. That excludes your pretty whores.”

Mocking words spoken, the ranger appears behind Kain. A step back after a single turn is all he needs, the tower of rage positioning his weapon diagonally downward. Movement shifting slightly to the side, Aeravor swipes his longsword towards an opening between ribs and armpit. Kain takes the hit without wincing, his right arm wrapped in metal the unlikely shield. Steel against steel, an attack changing direction at the last minute is foiled at the final moment. The opponent is a good one, muses a grinning Aeravor. The circular nature of his movement was deceptively nimble, the positioning allowing him to swing that glove of his.

With a sudden stride forward, Kain unleashes an awesome force beyond mortal boundaries. A tree blessed with great girth is hewn much to every watcher's shock, the quarry nowhere to be seen. Any fear of Ciras being taken hostage is banished as Aeravor closes in from the rear, a vicious smile drawn.

Slash against slash, precision fueled by brutality is repelled by technique honed and refined. This is a visual feast for the strong, a play not for the weak in heart. The air of aggression displayed from both combatants assails the spectators, tension forcing their breaths into rapid bursts.

“Such a beautiful sight... a pity it lasts only for a moment.”

Aeravor can never forget that beautiful show of fireworks countless years ago, for those were the words said by Kagetsu no Ji'Yon.

“We’re going to die anyway. Might as well create our own sparks and lit our own pyre.”

This was the Wildebrand’s answer to a Yaguryo maiden, a gentle heart making her an enemy to this world. There is no tomorrow, only today. Such is the beauty Aeravor knows, something he obtained after going from Gastony to the Homm'Nua capital of Astas-Er. It's the spark of life, the root of a bonfire. Tales of dreams are nothing but a lie, a momentary life is all he wants. He doesn't need friends, for he has the Edge of Answerer. Love is futile, for he's never short of whores. A life of fetters is a life not worth living for, dignity is what one makes out of it.

The end arrives with the cawing of birds marching ahead, a sudden conclusion in the form of crows flying past. Burning pain tearing into both men intoxicated by battle, Aeravor’s reaction is the opposite of Kain’s passive look. Immobilised on the spot, they are firmly shackled by chains of silver anchored to the ground.

“Ji loves you, not me. Promise me you’ll take care of her.”

The Relentless One bares his teeth before a handsome youth blessed with golden eyes, his short blond hair reflecting a complexion fair like ivory. Like any traveller, he is wearing a pair of trousers and leather boots. His shirt is one any smallborne would wear, a necklace of fangs the only thing standing out from a mundane look.

“Stop it. There’s no point fighting like little boys wrestling with each other.”

His rebuke done, the youth turns towards Ciras, Adarl, and Lolyx with a bow and mischievous grin.

“Lars Alies at your service.”

“What? What do you mean by ‘at your service’? We're not after some man's...”

Before a flustered Lolyx not knowing what to say, Lars gives a shrug.

“Don’t get the wrong idea if you’re referring to paid shafting. I assure you I don't offer that kind of service. But I did whore and get drunk among other things.”

“Free me, Lars. Free me so that I can expose you in front of everyone!”

“Some people never change. I’m here to tell these two beautiful princesses that the Serpent has bluffed them. There’s no information waiting to be found. At least not from six feet underground.”

Silence conquers everything, Lars giving Aeravor an answer he doesn’t need. It shouldn’t have ended this way, the fairy tale shouldn't have turned horribly dark. The Relentless One’s breathing can be heard audibly, a wolf waiting to tear out its captor’s throat.

As for Lolyx, she suddenly senses something in a man getting on her nerves. Not the one resembling her own people, but he whose look differs from hers like day and night. She can’t understand why and what, an image then flashes before her.

It is the same “him”, but he is now chained like a dangerous animal. A murder of crows forms a swirling circle above, their unceasing cries sending shivers penetrating her heart. This is a morbid portrait painted atop a mountain of dead people, the worst possible cemetery afforded by imagination.

Lolyx is willing to acknowledge this Lars Alies as someone deserving sympathy, not fluster and contempt.

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Glossary
Romus: The capital of the Hallenian Empire.

Legionnaires: The infantry aspect of the Imperial Military Corps. Heavy legionnaires are called shieldsmen. They wear splint armour, carry shields, and are armed with swords. Light legionnaires are called lancers. They wear scale mail shirts, carry no shields, and are armed with spears. The basic legionnaire tactic involves a line of lancers deployed behind one line of shieldsmen. However, capable tacticians have been known to attempt more innovative approaches.

Cavaliers: The cavalry aspect of the Imperial Military Corps. Unlike the legionnaires, cavaliers are either medium or heavily armoured with the horses either lightly or heavily barded respectively.

Sagrissers: The light aspect of the Imperial Military Corps. Used for scouting and skirmishes, Sagrissers are also in charge of maintaining law and order in areas less controlled by any central authority of the Empire. Sagrissers can be either mounted or on foot. Also known by Teutonians as the Empire's naked runners due to their lack of armour. Running naked as a derogatory term for reckless youths originated from the Sagrissers.

Brondte Romus: The founder of the Hallenian Empire after the downfall of the unified Republic of Causacea. Together with Osker of Teutonia and Leksov of Slarvea, they're known as the Three Thrones in Causacean history and Three Pretenders to elven historians. The capital Romus was named after him.

Monday, 3 January 2022

Happy ending to 2021=Happy start to 2022

2021 wasn't famous for being positive. Rather than bathing in the mercy of Stendarr, the love of Mara, and the light of Akatosh, we get instead the whip of Molag Bal, the jaws of Anduin, and the sharp end of Hircine's spear.

It didn't help that an unpleasant episode of Bonnie & Clyde hit a great content creator lately. I'm not talking about Xiaxue because I don't care about her Ryangate interview with Sylvia. I don't care but my fellow Singaporeans seem to differ. That proved me to be different and un-Singaporean. Neither am I referring to a Roman god who got removed from a competition featuring multiple Roman gods due to the Senate Praetorian Force intervening because of a complaint involving real-life Michelangelo photos.

The content creator I'm talking about is none other than Malukah. If you're a Singaporean, chances are you don't know who she is. But if you've played Skyrim and beyond, you'll know who she is. In fact, I suspect you only need to know how awesome Elder Scrolls heroism truly is.


While it's a good thing to see this Bonnie & Clyde mess cleaned up. It also begs an important question: Is it now the time for Oda Nobunaga to rout Imagawa Yoshimoto with his army of 2500 dudes? Okay, that's hyperbole.

I'm referring to the idea of a content platform catering to content creators of artistic excellence. In other words, it's not a club for social influencers. Ambitious, yes. Possible? Well, maybe (i.e. just maybe) we can get some positivity from the most unexpected source. Namely, the Prime Minister of Japan from 2001 to 2006.

"Taizo. All of mankind's greatest endeavours and achievements started off as impossible from the ground. If you don't do the impossible, you're less likely to succeed!"
- Koizumi Junichiro

Note: Koizumi Junichiro never said that. More specifically, the quote is from the manga series The Legend of Koizumi. Clearly, this quote was only as real as the possibility of Sanada Matajiro being real and that he's the reason why Koizumi had to settle for a divorce. Of course, this wouldn't make any sense since Miyamoto Kayoko's response would have incurred the wrath of feminists at home and beyond.

So what am I going to do here?
I'm going to up works of independent content creators. While it's literally impossible for me to up every single such work, the names you're going to see are the representatives of the indie creativity world at large. I'm doing this for free and without asking for permission (hopefully, the latter won't get me into trouble), but the point is to support quality content.



Note: In case you're wondering whether she's singing the above song in English, she's actually singing in Polish because the Witcher series originated from Poland due to a Polish dude.






Wednesday, 22 December 2021

A Requiem From Winter Past: Chapter 3

AGE WARNING:
This work is one of dark nature. If you're below the age of 16, then you're better off reading something else. I don't profess to follow the rules of my country where only foreigners like G.R.R Martin and Miura Kentaro can write dark fiction.


A Requiem From Winter Past
~The Wolf, Lion, And Maiden Fair~
(Written by Cocteau L'Enfant Naturel)

Chapter 1

Chapter 3: The Maiden Fair And Her Prince

"There are only three princes in this world: The fool, the righteous, and the sellsword."
~Anonymous

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Beneath the morning sun stands a manor, its foundation surrounded by a wall spanning miles. Perched atop a fertile plateau overlooking the region of Saltsea, this is the seat of House Eliaden. Given to its first patriarch Erasmere Gaias Eliaden, Lancershire is a place named after the finest spearmen the Hallenian Empire has ever seen. Despite countless years passing by, these fearsome fighters were never displaced from their home. Like his father and forefathers before him, Leonus Gaias Eliaden is tasked with the duty of overseeing law and order while defending Imperial coastlands against marauders attacking from the Endless Straits. With its back facing the Rock Coast and Eagle's Horn to the south, Fort Caern is ever ready as the watchtower. Despite Histalonia’s claims of being nothing more than a mercantile nation neutral and fair, questions have been asked concerning an alliance forged between Histalonian buccaneers and Yaguryo pirates from the Southern Archipelago of the Furthest East.

“Young Mistress, someone seeks your audience.”

With a formal bow, Treva Fench announces the arrival of a person he’d rather die than acknowledge. His object of reverence is nothing less than a beautiful maiden of eighteen winters, her wavy hair of raven black reaching to the waist. The fairness of her complexion is different from that of a Causacean, facial features belonging to an adopted daughter of Hallenian nobility undeniably proving her a Yaguryo. Dressed in a light blue gown, a shelf full of books faces her with a tome opened before almond-shaped eyes.

“Let me guess,” snickers a portly middle-aged man, his garb one of finery with chainmail shirt underneath. “It’s our brave little lion, no?”

“Yes, you’re right. Happy now, Yiovil Lyos?”

His wiry frame tensing up, Treva took Yiovil’s bait with a snapping reply.

“Let him in, Treva.”

With a tone gentle but firm, Irlia Eliaden rises from a chair of oaken wood.

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“Getting married? Guess we’re at least a couple of years too late.”

Expecting disappointment from the man pledging himself to her as a bond to House Eliaden, Irlia is unable to mask her surprise at Cale Ryvers’ composure. Surely there has to be a sliver of sadness in his words, for this is a lad known for stupidity and foolhardiness than traits worth a maiden's glance.

“I know I should have been disappointed. Acting dumb does have a wonderful effect and that's why boys will become men. What a self-deceiving load of shit.”

The sandy blond betrays a rueful smile. When they were twelve, a promise was made in the name of love. Children will always be children regardless of boys or girls, those are the words his sole family member always says even to this day. Marvas Creek called him a cretin and hopeless loon, such has been an absurd dream of being both hero and Irlia’s wedded beloved. Lukas Broun, on the other hand, encouraged him to take that leap of faith, for this was nothing less than his own life. Choices are defined by the maker, this remains Lukas’ logic after so long. Those were words pleasing to every dreamer's ears, be they for better or worse. Adarl first proposed to him when they were thirteen, Cale had no idea what she's thinking. She was called an ugly little wench by a group of boys, an episode in life told in the form of fisticuffs which Cale unfortunately lost. She disappeared from his view after he mentioned the promise made with Irlia, her father deciding to do something about it afterwards. She worked as a serving girl under Chard's watchful eyes, within that period she blossomed into a beautiful lass. In the words of a children's tale, the ugly duckling has always been a baby swan. And now Cale has to announce a decision, one made with much effort from two fatherly men wanting only the best for their charges.

“You’re not the only one getting married. I and Adarl will be getting married. Next spring to be exact. Which means I'll be sending you off first.”

With a shrug, Cale erects a wall of steel separating fatalistic acceptance from anguished denial. As for the Yaguryo daughter of Causacean nobility, she can only arm herself with an imperturbable facade as her sword. Eyes of hazel never straying from his gaze, Irlia recalls the very day when a person of false nobility first beheld a lion’s cub.

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“Iry…”

“Don’t worry, Ermia. I’m here.”

Squeezing her friend’s arm, Irlia could only watch in awe and shock at an unruly boy savaging their tormentor. No one knew where the wild child hailed from, neither could any discern how a smallborne was able to enter a school only for the rich and nobility. Sneaking a glance towards Cressandra Tanias, the Yaguryo realised she’s wearing an expression no different from the rest. Only Ermia Nantes was terrified stiff, yet who could blame her for being the victim instead of a bystander?

The three were close to each other since their eighth winter, Ermia admiring Irlia's honesty while Cressandra wanted a friend who would not judge. It was the untimely death of Eirlania Ulst-Eliaden, beloved wife of Leonus Gaius Eliaden and sole daughter of House Ulst, bringing them closer still, a blessing arrived at an obvious cost. Ermia detested her family watching her every move, the less spoken about Cressandra’s father the better. The gaze Calcos Tibald Tanias directed at Irlia the previous spring during a confrontation with her father remained a nightmare, perhaps this was why gentle Cressandra would have nothing good to say about him.

As for that raging smallborne boy, no one discovered how he could evade the security. What the Yaguryo knew, however, was that the bully had gone too far by ripping off Ermia’s skirt, his arrogance pelting Irlia with lewd slurs and profanities. Where he got his knife from, only the Holy Quintet knew. Then the offensive object was knocked away, a violent fist breaking his wrist.

“Kill you! Kill you, kill you, I’ll kill you!”

Those were the words unleashed from the stranger’s lungs, his voice resembling a lion’s roar. Blessed with an upright soul and wrath against evil, was this how a real man should be like? When she was still alive, Irlia’s only mother brought her to the Imperial Zoo. She remembered two animals captivating her sight, one was a lion and the other a wolf.

“Iry, stop him! We’ll get implicated if Frais dies!”

The Yaguryo stared blankly at Cressandra’s pleading look, Ermia shaking her head vehemently in response.

“No! Let that bastard die!”

“Ermia!”

Promptly interrupting Cressandra's rebuke, a crippled man laid a gentle hand on her shoulder.

“Your father is worse than a snivelling coward but you’re nothing like him, Your Grace. Lady Cressandra of House Tanias, I give you my word that I’ll stop this child. And besides, Cale is always synonymous with trouble.”

Calling out his son’s name, the kindly man with a limp seemed to have fulfilled his promise. A moment more shocking than the violence done arrived, the boy’s question an animal’s growl. His words repeated an obscene boast, each syllable slowly spoken and causing every girl's blushes. As for the boys, they could only remain speechless for whatever reason in each one's head.

“How many whores in this place have you shafted? Ten? Hundred?

“Pilaes Ryvers! Tell your boy to shut up before I terminate your service!”

“No wonder he looks familiar…” sniffled Ermia, her school principal and Pilaes Ryvers engaging in a staring duel. “His vegetable loaf is the best we’ve ever tasted.”

“None…" snivelled Frais Arnter. "Please, no more…”

Without a single word, Pilaes’ son turned his back on a vanquished foe.

“Watch out!”

Irlia’s warning was a fleeting moment too slow, Cressandra and Ermia could only stare with horror seeping out from the heart. A rock smashed across the boy knight’s head, Freis’ look was one of a vicious animal bearing a humane visage.

Cale offered a laugh in reply, he survived a hit that could have killed someone his age. What kind of being is he? More than just a boy, he seemed more like a beast. With a twisted grin, the smallborne picked the rock dropped by a panicking son of nobility. His right hand holding it firmly, Cale licked the blood off a weapon claimed for himself. Spitting it out like a tavern brawler with a leer worn and shoulders dropped like a lion waiting to pounce, a vicious pursuit was now on the cards.

“Hu… huh… hah!”

Frais Arnter ran away as fast as possible, every girl especially Ermia laughing at his plight. The boys, on the other hand, started whispering among themselves, bewilderment clouding their senses. Convinced that one of them was a god, the sight of a smallborne mortal making him wet himself was a revelation. As for Irlia, she kept her eyes on a being of righteous anger, that which made the firstborn son of House Arnter flee like a craven knave.

The saviour’s eyes and smile… nobody noticed his mundane features. The Yaguryo knew another person of a similar bearing, a fateful meeting during that frigid autumn haunting her. Cale Ryvers should have been just one person out of countless souls, his anger reminiscent of a Relentless One she met under that blue full moon a year ago.

Extending her arm, she gripped Cale’s hand. Before she realised it, jewels of sapphire blue made contact with her hazel gaze. For the rest of the day, Irlia Eliaden was as silent as a mute.

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Summer enters its final portion, the bluebirds performing a symphony of joy and hope. A garden resembling the most captivating meadow surrounds the seat of House Eliaden, grand is the building made with stones of alabaster and granite. Six lions stand erect, statues of dwarven craft a head taller than the average Causacean male. Three on each side flank the porch, the reach ten spans in length. Such is a father's love given to a daughter, one who is neither his own nor his deceased wife's.

“Hey, wake up. Wake up, Iry.”

A bleary-eyed Irlia wakes up to Ermia’s incessant calls, her fingers running through slightly tangled locks. How long has the slumber lasted, she doesn't care. The sole daughter of House Nantes chooses not to share her best friend’s sentiments, a peeress wearing a pout and sun-kissed complexion pointing a thumb at the evening sky.

“Guess how long you’ve been enjoying life, sleeping beauty?”

“I desire not to know, Ermia,” responds Irlia, her giggling goading a fellow noblewoman whom she knows since they were no older than seven.

“By the Holy Quintet and Seven Hells, Irlia of House Eliaden never fails to annoy Ermia of House Nantes. And please cut out that language. We're not at some dumb ballroom full of finely dressed cretins.”

The two good friends indulge themselves in a bout of laughter. Never the kind which members of the nobility are known for, this is of joyful children running about. The last time they enjoyed such a moment was before Ermia’s marriage to Lysas Gloreas, a day before she was to be called Lady Ermia Nantes-Gloreas. To think both Ermia and Cressandra were convinced Irlia would be the first to get married, Yaguryo or no Yaguryo.

“One beautiful lady off the rack like the finest wine, two more to go,” grins a prideful Ermia.

“But it's still unthinkable you're the first to enter a chapel’s gates.”

Putting up a mock frown, Ermia taunts Cressandra with an impudent gesture. The daughter of House Tanias has no choice, she can only shake her head and laugh. A year of married life matters not, Lysas can’t contain his wife's belligerence. It is often quoted time changes people, for the natural flow of things travels along a single path. From the past to the present, after which the future awaits. But not to someone whose behaviour mirrors a daring boy, a lady clearly less than a demure girl.

“Hey, Iry and Cress. Don’t you wish we’re smallborne rather than the highborne?”

“How amazing to hear Ermia Nantes-Gloreas using an obscenity to end her question.”

“Shut up, Cress. You should be getting married earlier than me given your looks and… well, pretty arse.”

Left speechless by Ermia’s vulgar praise, Cressandra can only afford an embarrassed lady’s frown while an amused Irlia looks on. Cressandra Tanias may be an eloquent speaker, yet comments on her most prominent body part would always force her to a corner. Ermia knows it much to her delight, a knowledge always giving her a gambit and victory in any argument.

“Word came to me that Cale Ryvers paid you a visit.”

Cressandra’s attempt to put her embarrassment to the sword results in greater awkwardness, for Cale’s relationship with Irlia is information never privy to a chosen few. Eternity journeys past the three ladies fair, Irlia setting her sight on two butterflies fluttering by.

“If only one can prove the existence of gods so that their blessings are shown to be true.”

Cressandra and Ermia leave themselves stupefied, Irlia’s answer revealing the melancholic truth. They know she is about to be married, just that Cale Ryvers is not the groom. Why would a highborne desire ridicule by marrying herself down, an act proving as if she is nothing more than a harlot? Nevertheless, the cold hard truth sinks its blade into each listener’s heart, Irlia’s inner world bleeding inside. They say it is a blessing to be a highborne, but those who curse such a life are the ones living it. A commoner's daughter is given more freedom to choose her lot in life, a woman of the peerage would be lucky if it takes eighteen winters to cage her in. Fifteen, if not sixteen, has always been the favourite age for every patriarch of nobility when it comes to producing a male heir, Leonus' decision to delay two more years is a blessing. She was allowed to ride a horse at thirteen, never mind it was a pony rather than a mare. She was given the free will to learn swordplay come her sixteenth winter, her skill nothing more than fanciful strokes bereft of function. Many are those of senior status calling her beyond control, few are those her age admiring the false noble for that inner fire revealed.

“You’re scaring me, Iry. Can you tell us plainly what in the Holy Quintet and Seven Hells actually happened?”

“Cale is getting married. To Adarl Tayne.”

“Well, there goes the happy ending. Those minstrels should be hanged, drawn, and quartered for singing out their lies. So what about the bond that idiot swore before the Holy Quintet? Are you going to release him from that oath?”

“Yes.”

“A hard decision, Irlia,” says Cressandra, her visage sombre. “One akin to sending a loved one into exile without other choices.”

“Cale was my shield against insults, the sword against scoundrels, a knight when it comes to defending my honour. Even my father has nothing but good words to say about him. It was his duty as my bond and I have discharged him from his oath complete with my blessing.”

The sorrow in Irlia’s reply is evident, trembling tone showing cracks across a wall separating the heart from the mind. The only thing left undone is the shedding of tears, she promised herself she would never cry. Neither in front of Cale nor anyone else, this is her only way to send him off and the best farewell present. Two years ago, she was convinced he was her prince. Two years later, she has no choice but to accept the real princess is never destined to be her. Has the boy ever noticed a girl’s feelings for him? There are times when she doubted his stupidity despite reactions of buffoonery reciprocating her feelings, her instincts whispering he's more intelligent than he appeared to be.

Then a hand seizes the book held tightly in her grip, Irlia’s wide-eyed shock greeted by Ermia’s impish smile. She tries to snatch it back, Ermia’s back facing her instead. Understanding her good friend’s personality fails to clear her senses, Irlia manages to wrestle Ermia Nantes onto the ground. Rolling over with the grass tickling her face, there is no way Irlia Eliaden can secure victory. She can only afford to let Ermia have her way, one more attempt to retrieve the book by force and the risk of ripped pages would be too real to be dismissed.

“Fine, Ermia. I declare you the victor.”

Laughing loudly at victory rightfully and vigorously earned, the strawberry blonde peeress begins flipping through the pages. Her eyes soon widened in amazement, the occasional glance towards her Yaguryo friend betraying incredulity. Curiosity overtaking her, Cressandra walks over to have a look at what Irlia wrote. Twirling her straight locks around the finger, Cressandra can only fixate her eyes on a blushing Irlia, wavy hair of raven black dancing along a tune whistled by the wind.

“Unbelievable!” exclaims Ermia, her tone booming in Cressandra’s ears. “I know you can draw, Iry. But this good? You might as well draw for little children!”

“I hope you will fall over senseless, Ermia.”

Surprised by a snappish attitude abruptly released, Irlia is not the only one taken aback. Why did she feel annoyed moments ago? The images drawn belong to the past, there is no way she will meet him again, that very him. Why did she lose herself in this situation, a scenario mockingly beyond her control?

“Well, he’s handsome. A right shame not as handsome as my beloved husband Lysas Gloreas.”

“Always boasting of the only man insane enough to sleep beside you every night? You never change even for a single day, Ermia.”

“So how about you, Cressandra? Lys may not be that right in his head, but are you crazy enough to swoon over Iry’s comely elven prince?”

“Well… I prefer a man who is less brooding.”

“You mean as bright as the dawn and not as dark as the night?”

“If you want to say it this way, then I have no choice but to agree.”

Baffled and utterly flustered, Irlia musters every bit of fortitude to suppress a storm inside her. Struggling to subjugate a revolt staged by emotions, the authority of her mind struggles to contain a raging force refusing to be chained. Then her lungs suddenly empty themselves, starvation of air too much for her to bear. It is not as if she drew him while under a trance, yet there is something about him pulling her into a maelstrom of want. Darkness conquers her senses, the last thing discerned being Ermia’s incredibly loud voice and Cressandra’s hand covering her mouth in shock.

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I watch my past seven years ago unfolding, myself seated as the lone audience. Everything is surreal, this is not the way to spend one's eighteenth birthday. Leers exposing my fears back then, my kidnappers spared no effort unmasking their hopeless lives. Why would men want to commit their lust unto a girl of eleven winters is a question I will never know the answer to. Ermia pointed out outlaws like them only desire money and ransom, Cressandra asking why both. This was two years ago, I still remember a sombre Cressandra nodding in response to Ermia’s answer.

“Only ransom if you’re a son. If you’re a daughter, then ransom exacted plus getting sold to a bordello.”

They claimed to be after my father's gold, said gold was nothing to these ravenous animals. Two things they aimed to get: To take their undeserved reward and my body. One end was all they wanted: To renege on their word and sell me like what Ermia mentioned. I knew what they were thinking, for each man spoke aloud out his mind.

Should sins and all things evil from the heart hold a higher authority than the simplest dignity everyone deserves?

I asked myself this question every now and then, there has to be a difference between man and beast. Is no one is ever safe regardless of birth and status?

“No honour there is in feeding the fire of evil with waters of wickedness, 'tis why the gods are also sinners if they truly live. For we are their image in the same way they are of ours.”

My mother not from birth taught me this much when she reasoned with an arrogant preacher, this is why I abhor such a life. What purpose does the promise of power serve if your soul knows not what it is living for? What gods are appeased by heinous people committing heinous acts?

My father is no stranger to people performing deplorable deeds, this is how I know certain things without being cursed with the luck to see them. My mother instructed me not to follow gods I do not know, my father echoed her sentiments. They say husband and wife are the greatest minds that think alike, but there were moments where I was left wondering whether she did love her husband despite his love unreservedly given.

Then he entered the act abruptly, the only words my inner self can conjure Chaos Incarnate. Twenty bandits bereft of remorse were hacked down, no reprieve and mercy shown. His movements were alluring, beauty beheld in the form of flitting images and flashes of steel. It remains so whenever I think about it, seeing my saviour weaving to and fro robbed me of my breath,. Those living my life shunned me, they correctly claimed a Yaguryo is no Causacean. As for him, his eyes betrayed a life ten times worse whenever I look back at them. I know not how, but I know for sure.

His eyes of crimson red... should I be fearing him?

Was he a demon many smallborne have whispered about in fear?

Or mayhap this was someone forced to be an avatar of death?

Could this man be chaos itself assuming flesh? After all, both the heart and head did proclaim the same words: Chaos Incarnate.

Questions without answers I force away, I know with nary a doubt this dream is not the end. It is but only the beginning of something I cannot foresee. My heart reaches out to the hero brandishing a bloodstained sword, I stand up from my seat with a hand extending towards the stage. Intuition tells me he is a living symbol of conflict, my mother used to say true indeed are a woman's instincts. He is not the type Ermia or Cressandra would fancy but is he handsome?

He is the rugged type comfortable with charming smallborne girls serving in taverns or even in a bordello, Treva once commented such men were only good enough for whores. My father was unimpressed by this bluntest jest, a stinging slap and words equally harsh ensured history would not repeat itself again.

I see the full moon gradually laying down its cards, the lunar sky invaded by a captivating sea of blue. The resultant clarity ensnares my soul, this has to be someone from that enigmatic race called the Relentless Ones. Silent acknowledgement greets the hooded figure as he turns around after a pause, his back the most poignant portrait. Mother has spoken before beings fair and powerful, their long ears and hair of wintry snow setting themselves apart from the elves.

A violent gale assaults both the stage and below, this is the kind of frigid blast arriving every eleventh month at autumn's end. Its force resembles a blizzard during the month of winter, his cloak billows wildly left and right. With his hood blown off, the wind directs the course according to its whims.

I never expected a complexion bronzed like a Tamurian, but I would never call his stark white hair and distinct features a lie. Eyes met each other for the first time, that of a little girl and an enigmatic prince. Burning jewels of crimson red supplanted by the most beautiful blue never seen before, he pulled his left hand away from her longing grasp.

It belonged to an azure moon hanging above, the never-ending blanket of clearest blue…

There is no difference between the past and present, may the future be like this as well.

Why am I having such a thought?

If only I could tell him that night my name is Irlia Eliaden.

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Glossary
Saltsea: A port city serving as the main economic hub for Teslaide.

Rock Coast: A rocky coastal strip serving as a buffer zone against any marine invasion against the northern regions.

Lancershire: One of the three major cities of Teslaide, the other two being Saltsea and Lindel. Also the regional capital of Teslaide.

Histalonia: An island state northeast of the Hallenian Empire.

Endless Straits: A narrow strip of sea separating Histalonia from the northern continent of Caucasea. Imagine it as a slight curve between an island and its mainland counterpart.

Furthest East: The story's equivalent of East Asia.

Southern Archipelago: The Causacean's way of referring to the cluster of islands south of the Furthest East mainland. Shaped like a ball and named Nanshu by the Yaguryo. Inspired by the Ryukyu Kingdom and Japanese piracy.

Yaguryo: The story's equivalent of East Asian.

Causacean: The story's equivalent of Caucasian.

Seven Hells: Hell according to the doctrine of the Holy Quintet faith, the predominant religion in the continent of Causacea.

Highborne: Members of the nobility or the nobility in its entirety. Also loosely associated with the rich.

Smallborne: The social opposite of highborne.

Bond: A willing bondservant to any member of the nobility who swore an oath to do so in the name of the Holy Quintet.